Not alone.

Kind of miss it...

In other news, I have been getting some projects done around the house, and it makes me feel better to have a task at hand.
Today I re-stained the deck. It looks fantastic. I have a blister.

Now I'm just hoping that we can get the basement done asap! :)

It's always darkest before it goes pitch black.

My boss told me in my performance eval today that I need to be more outgoing and interactive with people in the office.

So it's apparently not enough that I have no friends here.
I apparently have no legitimate business contacts either.

"Just talk to people more"

Awesome. And since that's so easy for me, I'll just plant a money tree in the backyard too.
 Then I won't have to work at all.

F.
My.
Life.

Swollen

My feet are swollen.

My knees are swollen and aching.
I feel like a cross-breed between a 75-year-old artiritic man and a 9 month pregnant woman.


My conference is over and it went fabulously.

I am thrilled.

And getting a massage on Friday.

Found out on Tuesday that someone hired after me was promoted to a Manager level. Can't help but feel a little hurt that I was passed over (not for her promotion but for a promotion). It kind of feels like my boss wants to keep me where I am. Which is complimenting and insulting all at the same time.

I still don't feel like going on vacation.

Dreams

It is 6 am and I have been awake for hours. I had the most terrifyingly vivid dream.
It was so vivid I'm actually not sure that it wasn't reality.

Isn't it bizarre how one little dream - if true - has the power to ruin all other dreams?

The conference starts tomorrow.

I'm so antsy. There's not a lot to do this early in the morning. I think I might make scones.

Sad

So many things are just flying around in my head like humming birds' wings.
Sad
Dull
Lonely
Stressed
Overwhelmed
Scared

Trying.

I am trying.

And that's about all I can say with any honesty whatsoever.

Completely Overwhelmed.

Ever been at the place where you have so much to do, it doesn't matter where you start because there's no way in hell that you're going to finish?

I'm three miles past that.

Less of a Woman

After finally putting batteries back in my scales, I was pleased to learn yesterday that I am officially 10% lighter than I was in November.
I'm 90% of the woman I once was...


*happy dance*