Sitting on Park Place

Not in the sense that I'm sitting on Money.
(*but we are getting a Great tax return because of all the money we've paid for Ryan's school!)

But I feel like I'm sitting on Park Place, about to advance to Boardwalk. So close to finally having a decision-an answer...

And then, all that's left is pass and GO!

Snow Over it!

I am so ready for some warm weather! We've had snow on the ground for weeks now. Literally. Weeks. And I am officially Over snow on the roads, icicles hanging from my roof, my filty salt-covered car...and the Freaking 27 degree weather that accompanies the snow!

Bring on the sunshine, humidity, and 95 degree days! (I'm totally stocked up on deodorant and sunscreen so anytime now is completely fine)

Insight

Ariana Huffington said that Fearlessness isn't the absence of fear, but the mastry of fear. It's about getting up one more time than you fall down.

I agree.
Fearlessness is staring fear in the face and jumping in with both feet.

Where do they sell life parachutes and flotation devices?

It's Hard To Jump with 1 Foot on the Dock and 1 Foot in the Boat

When Ryan proposed to me, that I KNEW beyond the shadow of a doubt that it was the right thing.

Why can't I apply that feeling to this situation?
It was so simple. I knew that no matter what life would throw at us, that I wanted to tackle it with him. Maybe we were ready; maybe we weren't. Maybe we had enough money; maybe we didn't. Nothing mattered but being married and taking on everything that was to come together.
There was no fear of the unknown. It was the easiest decision I've ever made in my life. I've never regretted it for a moment.

So why is this decision so hard? Why do all the "what if's" matter now? Why, with him by my side, holding my hand, do I second guess everything? Money, time, ability. . . .

How do I find that fearlessness again?
I need to know how I can jump in with both feet.

Sickly

I think I have a fever.

Falling to Pieces

Do you ever feel its pointless to continue holding yourself together?

What's really so bad about falling apart.

I thought life was supposed to be highs and lows. Where are the highs?

This Economy is So Bad....

I got a pre-declined credit card in the mail.


I ordered a burger at McDonald's and the kid behind the counter asked " Can you afford fries with that?"

CEO's are now playing miniature golf.

The bank returns your check marked "Insufficient Funds" and it's a legitimate question to ask if they meant you or them.

Hot Wheels and Matchbox stocks are trading higher than GM.

McDonald's is selling the 1/4 ouncer.
Parents in Beverly Hills fired their nannies and learned their children's names.

A truckload of Americans was caught sneaking into Mexico .

Dick Cheney took his stockbroker hunting.

Motel Six won't leave the light on anymore.

The Mafia is laying off judges.

Exxon-Mobil laid off 25 Congressmen.

Congress says they are looking into this Bernard Madoff scandal. Oh Great! ! The guy who made $50 Billion disappear is being investigated by the people who made $1.5 Trillion disappear!


I was so depressed last night thinking about the economy, wars, jobs, my savings, Social Security, retirement funds, etc. I called the Suicide Lifeline. I got a call center in Pakistan and when I told them I was suicidal they got all excited and asked if I could drive a truck...
 
Unfortuantely, I can not claim this is as an original post, though as the author is unknown I cannot give proper credit.

People Who Annoy Me.

1. People who drive slow.
2. Miley Cyrus.
3. People who whine.
4. Women who wear a size 0.
5. Women over the age of 18 who weigh less than 115 lbs.
6. People who use improper grammar.
7. The IRS.
8. Politicians.
9. People who sell their food stamps.
10. People who like Miley Cyrus.
11. People who push their beliefs on others.
12. People who think using a turn signal gives them right of way.
13. Women who don't wear bras in public.
14. People who don't get sarcasm.
15. People who take up 2 parking spaces.

It's been a long day.