Swollen

My feet are swollen.

My knees are swollen and aching.
I feel like a cross-breed between a 75-year-old artiritic man and a 9 month pregnant woman.


My conference is over and it went fabulously.

I am thrilled.

And getting a massage on Friday.

Found out on Tuesday that someone hired after me was promoted to a Manager level. Can't help but feel a little hurt that I was passed over (not for her promotion but for a promotion). It kind of feels like my boss wants to keep me where I am. Which is complimenting and insulting all at the same time.

I still don't feel like going on vacation.

Dreams

It is 6 am and I have been awake for hours. I had the most terrifyingly vivid dream.
It was so vivid I'm actually not sure that it wasn't reality.

Isn't it bizarre how one little dream - if true - has the power to ruin all other dreams?

The conference starts tomorrow.

I'm so antsy. There's not a lot to do this early in the morning. I think I might make scones.

Sad

So many things are just flying around in my head like humming birds' wings.
Sad
Dull
Lonely
Stressed
Overwhelmed
Scared

Trying.

I am trying.

And that's about all I can say with any honesty whatsoever.