When Ryan proposed to me, that I KNEW beyond the shadow of a doubt that it was the right thing.
Why can't I apply that feeling to this situation?
It was so simple. I knew that no matter what life would throw at us, that I wanted to tackle it with him. Maybe we were ready; maybe we weren't. Maybe we had enough money; maybe we didn't. Nothing mattered but being married and taking on everything that was to come together.
There was no fear of the unknown. It was the easiest decision I've ever made in my life. I've never regretted it for a moment.
So why is this decision so hard? Why do all the "what if's" matter now? Why, with him by my side, holding my hand, do I second guess everything? Money, time, ability. . . .
How do I find that fearlessness again?
I need to know how I can jump in with both feet.
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What are you second guessing about? Talk to me babe. I'm here for you. I love you!
I'm not sure what's going on, but I'll be praying for you! If you need to talk, I'm here. I know what those moments are like. Once the "honeymoon" is over and you get caught up in the day-to-day routine, it's easy to lose that "lovin feelin." Been there. There have been many moments where I wondered if I made a mistake. But then I remember that all marriages have those moments. It's not easy. Let me know if you need to talk!
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