Loss

There have been a lot of loss in my household this week.
I feel sad.
Guilty.
Hopeless.

Here's hoping these next few weeks can bring some healing and hope.
And possibly, more excitement!

Good Bye, Murph-Star

My precious Persian Price, Murphy died today.

He was a good cat.
He loved to howl, especially during the night. Upon investigation, he was most typically found dragging a piece of dirty laundry from the hamper around in his mouth.
I can't count the number of times I came home to find that Murphy had dragged a pair of my panties into the Kitchen or Living Room and just left them sitting.
Murphy loved heat. Shortly after we adopted him, we learned he suffered from terrible hair balls, so we routinely took him in for shaves. He looked adorable with his little Lion Cut.
But it made him very cold to have such little fur, so we loved sitting near (or on) anyone who was warm. He especially loved sitting on Ryan. In the winter, when I pull out my handy space heater, Murphy could always be found parked about two inches from the heater. Even when it wasn't on, he would perch right in front of it, just hoping it would start omitting his precious heat.

But what Murphy loved the most was anything soft. He loved pillows, beds, couches, anything that had some "fluff" to it. (Including Ryan's stomach)
He purred a lot. On nights when I couldn't sleep, all I had to do was find Murphy and bring him to bed with me. He would curl up right beside me and purr until I fell asleep. Usually, he was still there in the morning time.

Murphy was a good cat. He will be missed.

uuuuum. well, ok.

God might just have a sense of humor after all.

John Steinbeck

Why. Don't things ever go according to my plans?!

"The best laid plans of Mice and Men often go awry."


Well, damn.

Depression, Photos, and Busyness

I've always had trouble having hobbies. I have lots of things I enjoy doing, but it seems after a long week at work I'm just too tired to actually DO anything.
But after a terrible week of spiraling this week (My emotions have been all over the place, and this week I was fantastically depressed.)
I pulled out my scrapbook stuff and have done 4 pages already this morning. Looking at photos of such good times we've had has really helped me remember that not all times will be like this.
And now I'm working on the last pages of 2008 trips...wow that's kind of sad. But at least I'm getting it done now.

The next few weeks I'm planning to enjoy some quiet weekends, before the busyness starts.
We have Justin and Amy's Wedding on the 25th
Their reception at our house on October 2nd
And Linda(my MIL) is coming to stay the weekend at our house on the 8th!
Plus, somewhere in there we'll be keeping the neices for a couple days while their new sister makes her way into the world! :)
So we'll be pretty scarce for a while, so I'm enjoying some quality time in my pjs on the new couch this morning with a cup of coffee. Bliss. And the happiest I've been all week!

Aloha!

I'm back on the mainland now.

Hawaii was amazing.
And my sleep is alllll kinds of messed up.

I'm thinking that it will be a few days before I'm back to normal. I've already uploaded photos and am waiting impatiently to go pick them up! :)

Antsy as Hell

We are leaving Saturday for our first vacation in 2 years!!! :)

Spending 9 days on Oahu, Hawaii.

:)
:)
:)

Unfortunately, I have two days of work to get through before then....
I just wanna go now!